Monday, April 2, 2012

The One About Fear

Every person has or has been afraid at some point. We've been afraid of many different things, ranging from spiders to simply going outside.

But this kind of fear is something I never remember experiencing before.

Last night I had a dream--well more of a nightmare in retrospect. I was in my nursery caring for my babies when I realized that I needed to relieve myself. So I walkied for backup, and it was a girl who I had never seen before wearing our uniform. Apparently, she had just been hired that day. Upon thanking her, I left for the restroom and was back in five minutes.

I came back to a whole different scene. One of my babies had succumbed to SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) in my absence.

Shock, grief, and sorrow attacked me all at the same time. I had never seen that baby before either, but the feeling of guilt was just the same: a baby entrusted to my care had died. When I reached in the crib to try to resuscitate the baby, I woke up. I was relieved that it hadn't really happened, but at the same time,fearful that it would.

All morning the images of the baby in my dream continued to haunt me. But as I cleaned the bathtub this morning, while I was still faced with those images, these words came to my heart:

There is no fear in love, but perfected love casts out fear because fear has torment.

That's when the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart, saying "Jeannie, you can beat this with faith!"

That was it. I knew exactly what to do. Faith speaks to the mountain: whether it be fear, sickness, poverty, you name it (Mark 11:22-24)! Faith believes that what the Word says is true above all others.

So I began saying that verse out loud. The more I said it with my mouth and believed it with my heart, the less intimidating the dream was. Soon, I was at peace again. Score one for the blood-bought child of the Most High :)

But LOVE driving out fear? It didn't make any sense to me. So I asked the Lord about it and He directed me to 1 John 4:17-19 17 "Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love."

Then He directed me to 1 John 2:5 which says, "The One who keeps His Word, in him is the love of God perfected."

oooohhhhhhhhh.....

Keeping His Word. That is how God's love in us is perfected. When you talk about defeating any obstacle in life, that's what it all boils down to. Reading His Word. Studying His Word, and most importantly, putting the Word to action!

Isn't it amazing how much the Holy Spirit can and will teach us? All we have to be is willing to listen and learn!

I look forward to what else He will teach me while I'm here!