Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Fed Up

I never thought I would ever say this but...

I miss Minneapolis.

Not that my home life is terrible. I have awesome parents. I have great friends. But I haven't been able to do evangelism like I used to, and to make matters worse, I can't just come and go as I please. I have to jump through hoops to get anywhere, and really it seems that the farthest I can walk away from the house is to the store to get an Icee.

Also, I've been slacking on my time with God and I've let my flesh take over more. I'm angry, depressed, and just downright frustrated with life right now. It's all too easy to see what I do not have (I know about those whose lives have been affected by tornados; please do not guilt trip me with this one. I have been praying for these people too).

And the gluten free diet? I hate it. I hate it more than anything. Seems like not matter how hard I try, I still manage to (oops, too late!)ingest gluten and get myself sick. I hate having to jump through hoops just to find something safe to eat because I can't just eat what I used to. I have to check every label, every ingredient. It's frustrating beyond all reason. Plus, the special food Mom and Dad have to buy me are also pretty expensive. That only makes me hate it more.

However, on a brighter (MUCH brighter) note, my brother is getting married this fall to his sweetheart, Sydney. Our family got to meet her and her mom over the weekend in Shreveport, and we hit it off right away. They're the sweetest people I've ever met. Sydney was just made for Stephen, I can tell; and I will FINALLY have a sister! :)

Well, that's my speil for today. Sorry for all the negativity; I have no excuse. If anything, I'll probably reread this when I'm in a better mood and be all like, "WHAT?? WHY DID I WRITE THAT?"

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Weirdest comments I have heard about...

Homeschooling.

Many of y'all know that I was homeschooled from Kindergarten to senior year of high school. Honestly, I loved it and would not trade anything for it.

However, I have also been asked weird questions and at times have been forced to defend my parents' decision to people I just met many different times.

Here are just some of the many questions/comments that have been thrown in my direction:

1. Is it legal?

Yes, it's legal in every state in the union. Please do not ask us this one. It's insulting simply because it implies that my parents are criminals.

2. What is your mother's level of education?

Honestly, I was so surprised at this one. I told the individual who posed this question to me that my mom does indeed have a college degree. To which said individual replied, "Oh good! I thought you were going to say high school!" She meant well, but it sounded kind of condescending.

3. Do your parents care about socilization?

Yes, that's why they homeschooled. 'Nuf said.

4. Wow, you're pretty normal for a homeschooler!

Quit stereotyping. Seriously. What the heck do you mean by "normal"?

5. Are you even going to be able to get into college?

Is that a serious question? Yes, homeschoolers are accepted into college. I was even able to score some scholarships, paying for 1/4 of my schooling at the university that I now go to thanks be to God :)

6. Do you have a LIVE PERSON there instructing you all the time? I mean a LIVE PERSON?

Nope. Don't need one. Why? Because my mom taught me to teach myself (once again, thank You God!). If there were some things I needed Mom's help on, she was there for that reason. That's okay. Or if I'm frustrated, I would just put it aside and work on something else. I was able to master the concepts within a few days with help from Mom and God.

7. But you're so sheltered and have no idea what the real world is like.

I was out and about a lot during my homeschooling days. I practically lived in the community. Those who tell me I should be exposed to the real world (at least the Christians who have told me this) forget the Scripture that says "For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God’s sight. As it is written: 'He catches the wise in their craftiness'” Is it really that important for me to get exposed to alcohol, drugs, and sex when I'm a kid? That's the "real world", like it or not.

8. Are you taught?

Is that a serious question? Please see #6's answer.

So that's my spiel for the day. I hope I did not offend anyone, that was not my intention in writing this at all. I like it when people ask me questions about homeschooling and I have nothing against the public schools. It's when people have the "I'm better than you" attitude that gets me frustrated. I don't like it on either side. Thanks for reading! :)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Is justice what we really want?

It's been all over the news for a couple of days: Osama bin Laden, enemy of the United States and the murderer of thousands of Americans on September 11, 2001 is dead after a raid on his compound in Pakistan.

I see many Americans celebrating the death of al Quaeda's leader. Even many Christians.

This bothers me to no end. Yes, Osama did get what he deserved, long overdue as it was. But haven't we all sinned? If justice is what we want for Osama, then shouldn't we all die?

The point is, all of us have sinned and fall short of the glory of God and the wages of sin is DEATH. That's why Jesus had to come; so He could take the punishment for us, and give us the gift of eternal life--a gift that none of us deserves but many of us have. Unfortunately, not everyone receives that gift.

Just thinking about where Osama might be right now, grieves me. I hope he had a chance to get mercy, because God is not willing that any should perish. What an awful surprise--he probably thought he was going to meet his ten virgins on the other side, but no...he probably met torment and eternal punishment.

Mercy, not justice. That is the cry of God's heart, and it should be ours too.